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Happy Birthday in Lieu

As per my M.O., I have put out the call to writers, both friend and strange(r) to contribute work as part of a series of on-the-spot poems/photos/art related to poetry, creativity and inspiration for the month of April. Basically, this is my way of honoring National Poetry Month. If you want to participate, please just let me know.

A poem written by J.d. Hillier, whose birthday was on April 1st. Happy belated, Mr. Hillier.

found on Google images

Note from the author:
This poem is more like a slow song, with the middle parts read more quickly.

Birthday, birthday.
Happy…birthday.

Wake up,
Just like any other,
Eat up,
Just like summer,
Drive out,
Just another bummer,
Dine out,
Just another bummer.

(quick)
But then,
at the end,
after the drinks,
without laughter,
the waiters,
(slow)
sing some little hummer.

(quick)
The cake,
after coffee,
after dinner,
after a drive,
after morning,
tastes like,
(slow)
any other.

Happy…

Birthday.

Happy…

Birthday.

(quick)
Get in the car,
Get on the road,
Get in the door,
Get into bed.

(slow)
Just another
Bummer,
Just another
Bummer,

Just like,
any other.

And since I’m writing this post as a method of procrastination…

an on-the-spot poem about putting off my e-publishing homework,
written today in lieu of doing responsible things

I’d rather write
a thousand lines
of poetry,
than a thousand lines
of code.

Eleventh

“What they don’t understand about birthdays and what they never tell you is that when you’re eleven, you’re also ten, and nine, and eight, and seven, and six, and five, and four, and three, and two, and one.”

Sandra Cisneros, “Eleven”

I’ve included the above quote because it is one of my favorites; the notion that now that I am 23, I am also ages 1 through 22. That today I am a college graduate student, but also the little girl with the lacy dresses, the baby standing in front of the fridge, pudgy cheeks expanding at the sight of anything but mush. I wear footsies and high heels; I sleep in a crib and a bed with orange pillowcases. I still live with my grandparents, and a dorm, and at home, and in an apartment in Boston. I am all these things. All those people. Happy first birthday. Happy eleventh. Happy twenty-third. Happy birthday to all of me.

An on-the-spot poem about getting older

I feel the same
as yesterday.
Damn it. 

The photos below are of some of the random places I’ve seen my birth date in the past week. I thought I’d share, because, well, this blog is mostly about moi

Eleven, eleven, somebody loves me.
     

Billy Collins’ Nine Horses

Fruit yogurt parfait thing from Starbucks

Swiss Preserves

Thinking of You…or Why I Hate the Itsy Bitsy Spider

We wouldn’t be talking like this, you and I, if it wasn’t for her. You know her. We all have a version of her. And when she’s gone, we can’t replace her, and you’re aware of this, so maybe you sympathize and you tell me it’s all right. But you know it isn’t. I know it isn’t. So we cut a deal. We stop talking about it. But this is what we do when we want something to go away. We stop mentioning it and eventually it doesn’t hurt so much. But it never goes away. And honestly, I never want it to go away.

I was waiting for a delayed airplane. I don’t remember the airline or the flight number. I just remember being upset that I wouldn’t be on time and that it was going to be too late at night to visit my grandma. The plane came eventually, as planes do, and on the flight a lady sang “Itsy Bitsy Spider” for a free drink. Or maybe it was a man. But when I got off my plane in Ft. Lauderdale airport, all I could remember was my dad telling me he’d been holding in the news: my grandma died before I ever left Orlando. My dad and I cried in front of flight attendants and airport employees on the floor of that airport. I don’t know how he held it in. I held nothing.

Now it is approaching almost half a decade later, and I am here in Boston, remembering my grandma, Elayne. Happy Birthday, Grandma. I miss you. So much it hurts.

My grandma was a media specialist at Hallandale High School and introduced me to books when I was very little. She read to me before bedtime (I had lived with her through most of my youth) after watching Jeopardy and playing solitaire. I’d rummage through her fake jewelery and cover my arms in large-beaded bracelets and gems and wood-carved cuffs. I’d set the table and stick little neon pirate swords into cut fruit because she asked and when we made French toast, I’d crack the eggs and she would dig the dropped shell pieces (because I always dropped them) out of the bowl. When I wrote poetry, she praised me. She pushed me to enter contests and join chorus. She went to my plays and my recitals. She bought me dance shoes and leotards and thousand-piece jigsaw puzzles and my first pair of glasses. When we visited my aunt in Maryland, we’d walk the streets of D.C. and enter museums both large and small, miniature aquariums and monuments and buildings that reeked of power. On road trips, she would bring my pink blanket and count the signs with me to South of the Border. At dinner, we named the states. I always forgot at least five. In Vermont, she raved of the beauty of the trees in fall, and how someday I’d get to see them.

She was right. I saw the leaves change in Boston and they were beautiful.

The pictures below are of my grandma and me. I had to take a photo of a photo, but I wanted you to see the woman responsible for the person I’ve become.

  
It is also important to note that today is my brother Jeffrey’s birthday. He’s getting so darn old, but I thought I’d provide a picture of when we were tiny.

Happy Birthday to You.